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all the marks came back, and i did very very badly. i think my l1r5 is about 29, and overall % estimated to be 51, without english.

mt - 69

ss - 60

poa - 62.5 

e math - 56

comb p/c - 50

bio - 49

a math - 15

lulz pathetic marks up there, especially a math. basically everything was disappointing. i think the ones that disappointed me the most was ss, poa & bio. mt's paper 2 was badly done, because of the cloze passage. if i had gotten more marks on that, i could have easily gotten my A2. if my compre earned a few more marks too, an A1. just 1 more mark to an A1, just this close.

ss was shit too. i was expecting an A1, but turned out to be a 27/45. argh my seq, and question b. forgot what was multi-racialism halfway through the paper and i was feeling like shit. if i had studied a little longer for seq, probably a B3/A2. gotta keep trying!

poa was shit, really shit. i didnt read the question properly for paper 1, or else an A1 would have came to me. argh really pissed at myself.

e math was quite satisfying because i didnt expect myself to pass, but i got a C5 in the end. not that bad for my standard ahahha. but a math was expected so..... but 15 is really shitty though haha. dont get how so many people can score so well in both maths :(

chem was disappointing. got a 33/60. many careless mistakes like writing 3 as 4, and 2 marks were just gone like that. need to work harder. failed my physics, 27/60. just 3 more marks. and mr kamal is shit. he just gave random marks to everyone. some people added like 11 marks. why why why. wrote air resistance as air pressure hahaha embarrassing.

bio was extremely disappointing as well. needed 1 more mark to pass. couldnt take it when i entered a math class on monday and cried meh. just so upset at myself because i studied really really really hard for bio. copied tons of notes, and went through worksheets and corrected my mistakes. but it's just not enough for me to pass, sigh.

english was as disappointing. failed paper 2 by 2 marks, and failed editing too. shitty marks.if paper 1 isnt well done, im screwed for english. just hoping that i wont fail english because it sucks to fail it. worst mye ever.

people keep telling me " hey its just the start of upper sec life, your grades care normal to be like that!" thank you for all those comforting words, but i think i really did badly. i know i can do better but i'm just not working hard enough... really dont get how people can score so well in everything.... i feel so dumb. 

do i really have what it takes to be in 3D1? maybe, maybe not.